Part of the "deal" we made was that if I was going to give up my life, church, and career when we got married, I would at least get to pick the church we went to. So, we tried a few churches. I found one that I really liked and felt comfortable in (which is very challenging for me). After the service my wife raced out to the car and started sobbing. So much for my getting to choose the church that I wanted...
So the church search continues. Last Sunday she was visiting her mom out of town, so I had the opportunity to go back to the church where I felt comfortable. The sermon was really convicting. It was actually a tangent in the sermon. The pastor somehow veered from Hebrews 11 passage to talking about submission in marriage.
First of all, let me recognize the obvious. This is a controversial topic. Perhaps it's my "aspieness", but I don't care. The following are my views and you can take them as that.
Here is the passage in question from Ephesians 5 (New English Translation):
Yes, I take this passage seriously. I do believe wives have a duty to submit to their husbands (although my definition of "submit" is probably different from what most English-speakers think). But I also take seriously the husband's duty to sacrificially love his wife. I also believe the submission thing becomes a lot more palitable if the husband faithfully fulfills his duty.5:22 Wives, submit 32 to your husbands as to the Lord, 5:23 because the husband is the head of the wife as also Christ is the head of the church – he himself being the savior of the body. 5:24 But as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything. 5:25 Husbands, love your 33 wives just as Christ loved the church and gave himself for her 5:26 to sanctify her by cleansing her 34 with the washing of the water by the word, 5:27 so that he 35 may present the church to himself as glorious – not having a stain or wrinkle, or any such blemish, but holy and blameless. 36 5:28 In the same way 37 husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. 5:29 For no one has ever hated his own body 38 but he feeds it and takes care of it, just as Christ also does the church, 5:30 for we are members of his body. 39 5:31 For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and will be joined to his wife, and the two will become 40 one flesh. 41 5:32 This mystery is great – but I am actually 42 speaking with reference to Christ and the church. 5:33 Nevertheless, 43 each one of you must also love his own wife as he loves himself, 44 and the wife must 45 respect 46 her husband.
So, how does this apply to the current church saga my wife and I are facing? Well, primarily, it means that I should be the one making the sacrifice. I'll be going to her church.
Even if one ignores the submission and sacrifice language, it does make sense in our case when you step back to think about it. First of all, I've been a Christian a lot longer than my wife and have significantly greater understanding of Scripture (although you may not be able to tell from this blog so far). She needs to be in a church where she can flourish more than I do.
Second, outside of church, my wife doesn't really have Christian friends she would see on a regular basis. While the same is true of me, it is significantly different since the majority of my strong Christian support lives far away from me anyway (literally scattered around the world). While it is true that most of my friends in any given city were church friends, that isn't as much of a need for me as it is my wife.
Third, although I don't particularly like the people, the teaching, or the liturgy at my wife's church, there is nothing really wrong with the church. It takes the Bible seriously. There are a number of solid Christians there, even if they aren't people I would choose to hang out with. Nothing about it causes an incompatibility with my "aspieness" (such as loud music). There is nothing at the church itself that deserves a veto on my part. It just doesn't fit my personal tastes I can live with that.
Essentially, my wife needs to be in a church where she is comfortable a lot more than I do. I have developed the coping mechanisms over the years to deal with a lack of comfort in my surroundings. She hasn't.
It appears that wisdom matches with my (admittedly conservative) interpretation of Ephesians 5 here. I just needed to get over myself and my own emotional baggage to make the small sacrifice involved.